facades
thanks sarah, for the worrying and the insight.
yes, i am still guarded. i’m unable to share all of my experiences pertaining to relationships, especially in a group. it’s not that i do not wish to share certain things, but that i’m aware of the many other factors that might contribute to my sharing in such environments not particularly beneficial for the brothers and sisters that may be weaker in the faith.
my closest friends know my struggles onli too well. and to those who actually bother, like my dear 54th alphawolves, i’m also willing to offer the information. however, i see no real need to go into certain details when everyone else know the parties that are involved. things might just turn ugly after that, and i know what a divided church (or even youth group) is like.
perhaps i should, from your words, get less used to leading. perhaps i should just share abt myself as a person, instead of getting everyone else to ponder abt the subject matter in general, which has always been a distinct style of my leadership. perhaps i should just offer up the information more readily, instead of being so cryptic all the time, and not presenting anyone with the full picture unless they’re really concerned enough. perhaps i should let the youth get to know who i really am?
bah sean, once again you’re just a ___ing hypocrite.