perhaps the greatest pain comes with the sweetest goodbye.
salina said sth to me before she left today, and what she said made me think a lot. (a little too much for a person that was woken up by a telephone call)
before she even told me that she was already on her way to taiwan, the first thing she told me was to take good care of myself, because penny and her were worried about me. what on earth did i even do to worry the both of you? esp since all my big fat chains of commitment and responsibilities have been taken offa me, and all i have left to worry about is just results on tuesday and army. is there really sth i’m missing, in my own life, that others close to me can see? or am i the sort that just makes those close to me worry their butts off?
granted, the both of them have worried over nothing before. like the time when the both of them thought i was super-emo and that i was ready to commit suicide or sth. but i think it’s happened one too many times for me to just brush it off and tell myself "nope, there’s nothing wrong with my life!" some serious self reflection is on the way tonight, heh.
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FRIENDS, DO NOT BE SAD. sure results are coming soon, and NS is on the way, and everyone is gonna run off to different places. but dun worry, and smile (: globalization will help us all get back in touch with one another, as long as we make the effort to. if anything, know that i will try my best to be there for you. and even without silly little sean, there’s always God to count on.
take heart everyone!