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thank you…

euodia, for being the first to msg me today and keeping me occupied (while using me to cure your boredom as well) when i was getting really bored at my relative’s home.

jomel, for writing me the lovely letter and coming all the way to my house just to pass it to me. 

the ong family + seanloke, for the "surprise" phonecall and all the well wishes, and esp pastor ong for the prayer.

gua khee, for the msn farewell.

jonathan seah, for laughing at his dear cell leader’s impending enlistment before actually admitting that he’s sad that i’m leaving.

tiffany, for the silly video you sent me.

hariz, for that wall post and the dinner date that will come after i bookout again.

jono, for the text because you werent online, though you came online later anyway.

jocelyn oh, for providing me with inside info (ULYSSES!) and making my night.

jocelyn (from the south africa trip), for surprising me with your msg and making me feel fuzzy.

debbie, for talking to me despite your insanely packed schedule.

zhiyuan, for being that stupid idiotic boy who keeps insulting me for no reason and gets away with it.

vera, for finally coming online so i didnt have to wait for anyone else on msn anymore.

… see you in 3 weeks ppl (;

when we’re in love, we experience the greatest joys. the quickening of your heartbeat just seeing your love walking towards you, the constant urge to just be ard her all the time, the tingling in your spine you experience when skin comes into contact with skin… these are but some of the little joys of being in love.

yet at the same time, it is from the highest heights that one experiences the greatest falls. it is when you’re so utterly drawn into what you believe in, into that romantic perspective as to what true love actually feels like, that when a single glitch is found in the system, things fall apart.

i was just sitting in my bed, thinking abt all that has happened to me and just reflecting upon how i’ve become the person i am today. and i truly believe that within the last 3 years alone, i’ve gone through a tremendous amount of growth and maturity, and experienced so much more than i ever expected to. perhaps it’s also because of this that i’m able to listen to others, and at times even offer my own point-of-view without them laughing at me at how "shallow" my views might seem to be.

to truly experience pain, misery, brokenness and heartbreak… one has to love.

indeed, the myriad of emotions and feelings that is called love - beautiful, primal, fascinating, abstract. there’s nothing quite like it, and nothing that will ever be like it. i’m so grateful to have had the chance to experience it myself, and i honestly doubt that i’d trade what i had for anything else in this world.

just rmbr though, love doesnt make the world go round.
it’s just what makes the ride worthwhile (;

for some reason unknown to even myself, i had an extremely restless night. trying to sleep earlier because of worship duty didnt help at all, and i ended up waking up at least 3 times before i was supposed to. in the end i probably had like 3 hr-long naps, which was totally insufficient for me to play the way i would have liked to play for worship.

but as colin said, it’s the last time that i’m gonna be on duty before i enlist, so i have to give it my all today. sure, we should always give our everything whenever we play for God, as a service towards Him. but more often than not, we treat it like a duty and sometimes we end up playing just for the sake of making music. thank God though, for this was the first time in a while that i’ve felt so free of burdens, free of troubles, and just free to worship Him with everything i have.

so worship today meant a lot to me, and so did all the well wishes from various individuals. a special thank you to those who actually made the effort to make me feel appreciated today (: it’s always nice to feel like you’re an important part of a body, a part of a family. and it’s a reminder for me as well, just to focus on the positives in life instead of harping on the little insignificant problems that try to draw our attention away from what really matters to us.

so thanks guys. euodia, tiffany, jonathan, marcus, penny, uncle lawrence, daniel, thomas, colin, mossy, shawn, zhiyuan, alicia, amanda, ian, rachel… for wishing me the best in one way or another. (i’m sorry if i missed anyone out. just complain to me and i’ll add your name in, promise!)

worship prac and clearing my sec 1-year 6 stuff from my room has left me exhausted. mighty to save is still pretty damn difficult, and the transition between the different grooves was wad killed me during practice. plus the amount of paper i’ve removed from my bookshelves is as tall as i am when it’s all stacked up, so think abt the number of trees the IB cohort kills every year.

but anyway, it’s been great chatting to the guys last night. arjun and i chatted all the way until 2, and what amazed me was how primal ppl can become just when they’re in the army. hearing the antics of some of the ppl from our batch cracked me up so much i was really laughing in front of the computer screen, esp with stories of how certain ppl brought in 18 pairs of underwear and whatnot.

perhaps being in army isnt that bad after all, but i’m still gonna miss the part of my life that i’ll leave behind when i take the ferry over to tekong. who knows, some ppl might actually miss that stupid boy whose company they never really appreciated when he’s gone. as the song goes…

don’t it always seem to go
that you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone
they paved paradise
and put up a parkin’ lot.

today’s lunch with may and wampy was very interesting. for one, the food at the korean restaurant was delicious, and it’s been very long since i actually had korean cuisine that tasted like the real deal and not some cheapskate overpriced nonsense instead. on the other hand, the 3 of us had a very nice conversation rolling along all the way, and i too managed to learn a lot just by listening in to wampy’s qns and may’s answers and explanations.

sigh, it’s too bad may isnt gonna be ard on sunday, so she cant lead the band for worship either. oh well, it’s ok. thanks for the treat may, and i’ll see you when i’m finally released from confinement (:

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my family’s attempting to make kueh bangkit at home for the very first time, and so far everything looks pretty good. it actually smells like those super fragrant ones you find in stores, so hopefully it’ll taste better than i think it will (being the eternal pessimist i am, hoho). 

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and although time has passed
i still get surprised
at the pulling in my chest
when i know you’re coming by 

did you know when you’re around
my heart won’t it can’t slow down
it beats so hard it makes it hard
to catch my breath

i finally managed to stay for the whole frisbee training today for the first time in a long while, and it was quite awesome to say the least. it’s been a while since i ran so hard, and had so much fun playing frisbee with my peers. it was quite funny for all the pes c dudes to be grouped together during the swing drill, since we’re all supposed to be "non-combat fit", and the defenders were like the better players around so the offence was totally getting owned.

but training isnt the same without the noisy year 6s, esp cheuk ho, fish, shaoyi and pang. all talk and no skill, that’s what we were. but hey, nobody can deny that the pink fluffy bunnys were the most fun team to be on during teamgamez 08 haha. and being in school, talking to patrick soo (who called the 4 of us the most fun class to teach ever in his entire teaching career), and hanging out with the year 6s now (i keep forgetting we’re year 7s now), just made me miss school so so much.

sigh, good times.

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"which part of your body has the most cartoon characters?"
*sb points at munching’s stomach*
"WHY DOES EVERYONE POINT HERE?!"

wilson: "what type of bees produce milk?"
sean: "lol, not this one again" ><
lavannia: "huh…what bees… OH I KNOW! HAHAHA."
munching: "huh huh huh whaaaaaaaaaaaat? what bees what beeeees?!"
*everyone explodes in laughter*

at this point in time, the blogger would like the readers to know that there were many comments about his legs today. suffice to say, almost all the girls in frisbee desire to have legs like his, because they are "perfect" for a girl. thank you.

a big thank you to steven, for telling me so much about the UK universities and just talking me through the whole idea of law and/or business. appreciate it (:

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sigh, i have a long way to go before i can actually drum properly, or at least decent enough for it not to sound amateurish. bleh, having nothing to practice on except my legs is pretty painful… literally.

minus the flashing undulating keyboards that wampy and i talked abt, minus how being big brained not the same as being smart, minus me and vera trying to argue over who’s more intellectual… today’s a pretty unexciting day really.

oh anyway, on another note… CHANGE IS UPON US.

-watches inauguration- 

after an extremely tiring day of rushing to school, then going to dawn’s place, before rushing back home for electone lesson… i’m finally back here at the computer screen where i belong!

the school visit, even though it was really short, was very satisfying. i got to talk to paul cheong, who advised me about army stuff and tried to psycho me into teaching as a profession. then by some strange coincidence, kaung myat was in school to send in his IB transcripts to the US colleges as well, so we had a little chat in the sac. wilson arrived, and after he had his lunch while i read his constantine comic, we went to visit our dear pink fluffy bunny MUNCHING in the chem lab. seeing her stress out over her chem ee just reminded me of how mad the whole level was when we were trying to rush out our own essays last year… bad memories i say.

well the attempt to play frisbee in school today was epic fail. since training started at 5 and i was supposed to reach bishan at 5 for the cell leaders’ meeting, i didnt really get the chance to play at all. all i could do was toss the disc with jonny and wilson for a bit, advise the current year 6s abt ib, laugh at the way at which i got my A in my ee, before rushing off to catch the bus and train to get to dawn’s place.

cell leader’s meeting however, was much much better than i expected. being able to talk and laugh and share and learn with penny, dawn, shawn and may was just awesome. it’s a pity mossy and jomel couldnt make it, but it was a really good time for the leaders to bond and just be aware of what being in a position of leadership entails.

so after that, may sent me home cos i had to rush back for my electone lesson. but since the drive was so long, may and shawn had to come in to relieve themselves before continuing. it was then that may realised that since they were already in my house, and i was gonna have my lesson anyway, that i should play them a song on my electone! -.- genius. but before i was halfway through rock’n roll baby, sebastian was already here so no more performance!

super long day, but very fulfilling. tmr’s still free though, any takers? (:

church and fellowship after that was great today. the long walk from church to city hall gave me the time to just talk and catch up with ppl (esp wampy), so no complaints there. it’s been like, 6 years since we last met, so i wasnt surprised with the many raised eyebrows when ppl asked abt the relationship between the two of us.

the tea session thingo with the campcomm went pretty smoothly, although i still have no idea why they went all the way to raffles city to withdraw money when they didnt need to pay for the meal… and salina and i almost forgot to call shawn to tell him that we already started eating, so a big thank you to sarah for reminding the two clueless ex-commandants about him xD

seeing sarah and salina today was so so wonderful. although sam couldnt make it cos of school commitments and stuff, just being able to catch up with my "mom" and my "godsister’s brother’s mom’s dearyhearts sister" was already enough for me. so many secretstuffs were shared, and little inside jokes that cracked all of us up, and speaking in weird terms that onli we could understand… these little things really mean a lot now that we dun see each other on a regular basis anymore.

but anyway, debrief was smooth and quick and just the way i liked it. appointing penny and shawn as the new commandants for youth camp 09 was probably the most impt thing that happened all day heh. it was pretty depressing trying to find the right guys for the camp comm (STEP UP BROS), but i have this feeling that these 2 years are merely a period of transition, and things will steady themselves for an extended period once 2009 is over. 

quotable quotes from ppl who shall remain unnamed:
"dum dum, dee dee. DING DONG!"
"oh man, i can just like… flop like a fish. you know?"
"SHAWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"i have no idea how you can have an intellectual conversation with her…"
"eeeeee… whose leg?"
"is the bread stale?" "no it’s moving."
"history!" "geog." "historryyyyy!!" "geog." "HISTORY!!!" "TAKE GEOG LAH."

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on a side note, i saw wei sheng. then i saw christina, elden and yee meng. pretty damn small world huh?

i’m gonna miss church.