invisibility should be a superpower.
it really sucks to be treated as if you were invisible. if it were a special ability that i could switch on and off whenever i wanted to, it wouldnt be so bad, esp since it’ll be really useful. but when your comments, actions and even presence is totally ignored by your "friends", it’s hard not to feel left out of things no?
maybe i’m more of a social creature than i thought. i enjoy being in the know, and getting into the thick of the action all the time. as silly as it might seem to some of you, it actually means sth to me when sb opens up to share abt wad’s going on in their life, even though it means annoying me at like 4am in the morning with incessant msn alerts about how that particular day sucked to the core for them.
it’s a privilege to be able to just listen to some of your stories, backgrounds and problems. it’s an even bigger privilege to be able to encourage you guys and even advise you to a certain extent. i feel honoured everytime somebody bothers to listen to what i have to say, and it feels even better when you know that your advice is able to help somebody in need, and you’re valued as a friend.
i try hard not to be pretentious, though i know i come across that way sometimes. it seems quite unlikely in this day and age that ppl would actually help others without the desire for any benefits or without an underlying motive, but i really do wanna help my friends in love. it’s absolutely impossible to love everyone though, i know that for a fact since i still do harbour a certain degree of bitterness within myself (yes, it sucks. do not learn this from me). but Jesus is able to do that, and that alone is worthy of me giving Him everything i’ve got in service to Him.