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sigh, mathematics has got the better of me.

i am watching as arjun wrecks my com 

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edit: arjun wrote all of that while i was struggling with calculus in school. i must say, it’s pretty funny xD 

no more 7 for chinese b hl.

no more pass for math.

almost impossible to get >32 pts and not retain liao.

in fish’s words, "tio fked."

children’s baptism service, nice oh9 catchup in church.

fugly haircut.

no chance of napping cos my father decided to nap on my bed.

ferrari wipeout in f1 singapore, nice run by alonso to improve 14 places, stupid hamilton failed to crash, awesome singapore skyline backdrop for the race.

i think i’m still too tired to blog properly (or lengthily for that matter). who wants to come up with money making schemes during our army days? 

my father’s at the track today watching f1 for the first time in his life, and i’m actually quite happy he’s there instead of me. for such an avid racing fan, and for all his knowledge abt cars and such, it’s quite surprising that he’s never actually been to a real race. let’s hope he enjoys himself there, even though he forgot (or chose not to) borrow earplugs from me so he’s getting the full blast of the action.

blah, i hate not being able to gym. i’ve been out mainly because of prelims for the past 3 weeks, but my stupid stupid elbow refuses to heal up so i’m still unable to push or lift anything. it’s pretty damn annoying since it’s also a kind of an outlet for me, but heck. i’ll just take things easy until it recovers properly.

like my title says though, i was supposed to talk abt unfaithfulness today. it came as a really simple thought: if your partner is somebody you love very very much, and somebody you’re willing to sacrifice everything for, you’d kinda expect the said person to do the same for you. and when that person chooses to do sth that breaks your heart, because they put themselves before you, wouldnt your heart break?

that’s wad happens between God and us isnt it? the selfishness in us just makes us forget God, and we just choose to do things in self-interest. that breaks His heart. probably more than we can ever imagine, because we cant even fathom His love for us.

sigh, i’m so so guilty of this, and yet God gives us all a 2nd chance. and another one after that. and another one after that… and so on. i’ll never comprehend His love for me, but all i can say is thank you Lord.

maybe i’ll continue whewn i’m not so tired, or when i’m inspired again. peace.

so despite a near death experience courtesy of gea chongwee, pretty erratic weather with the unpredictable rain, and not riding a bike for at least 7 years or so… I HAD AN AWESOME TIME AT UBIN TODAY.

arjun, ian, chongwee, patrick, ding and i set off this morning with pretty dim hopes of having a good outing, esp with all the rain and whatnot in the morning. and judging by the difficulty i had with getting myself onto a bike, it was kinda obvious that i was the weakest rider and probably the one that would slow everyone down today. i mean, my sleeping at 5 had absolutely nothing to do with that at all -shakes head-

thank God though! the weather cleared up for the most part, and when it rained again we all hid under the nice shelters and had a great time just talking and resting and taking a breather. managed to catch a lot of animals today too! a wild boar, a jellyfish, jungle fowl, yellowtail fish, a monitor lizard, swallows and i think a hornbill flew past when we were cycling back! and all the silly little things that resulted from our antics: patrick losing control of his bike and planting both his feet (shoes and socks included) into a hugeass mud pool, me almost crashing into chongwee after he lost control and i freaked out so i forgot abt the brakes, ian’s bike falling into the same hugeass mud pool patrick fell in while we were on our way back, chongwee looking like he shit in his pants after we were done with the whole thing. i think that’s all i can rmbr for now ><

headed to vivo after that, since i needed to rush over to sentosa for the class outing thing. joined by daryl and kaijun for lunch at superdog, we were all so freaking hungry by then that we didnt really care what we ate (we just knew we had to). didnt have much time to eat though, so i ran off once i finished my food. was running up escalators to the monorail when CAO spotted me from like upstairs, and he was with asher. pretty funny shit ensued, which always happens when cao is ard. i swear the both of them would have had no clue how to get to sentosa without me though. even if they did, they would have probably taken over an hr to figure it out.

too bad we came too late to catch any sun ): didnt get to play much either, since they all decided to swim after we buried asher in the sand and made a mermaid out of him. still, it was pretty fun to watch the rest play water "monkey"! asher got his face smashed by fish twice, just cos he didnt pay attention to the game, while maria kept getting splashed by everyone else since she didnt know how to catch the ball before it hit the water. asher, cao and i decided to try making a sandcastle, but we absolutely failed because we didnt have a bucket or a spade. ah well, i still think it was worth it to spend some time with the class, esp those that i dun usually talk to like kaungmyat, juang, renee, maria, cao and asher!

oh btw, chek jawa is awesome. <3 geps (again).

my goodness, today was just insanely warm. i think the lot of us that came down for soccer onli managed to play for like 30min-45min, before all of us died from losing so much water to the extremely intense heat. it’s been a while since we all caught up though, so today was excellent in my opinion (:

<3 4.9

<3 geps.

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you dun know the value of what you have, until you lose it. 

i’m never letting go, not of You. or you, or you or you or you or you… you get my drift. i dun want to, and i dun intend to. i’m gonna miss the whole lot of you, friends forever right? and when i find that special one, i’m holding her tight for good. one small little request though…

would you hold on to me and never let me go too?

farewell chapel today was interesting to say the least. it seemed quite surreal (maybe cos i was dazed from not sleeping at all the night before) that this was gonna be the last session of chapel after all these years in acs, and also quite funny that after 6 years in acs i would actually spend my last chapel session sitting beside a girl and none of the ppl i’ve spent all these years with. haha no offence debbie, you’re always gonna be an awesome friend of mine (:

honours day brought back many memories of the days in sec sch, when i was still part of art club and we got like certs of distinction just because we participated in OM. tim, shao xiong, zephy, lejon and i had some good times then. too bad art club became an "interest group" in sec 4, and we didnt get anything for honours day that year. but i’ll forever rmbr the days when we stayed back for OM, the times when we messed ard doing silly stuff, watching lejon and muthusamy fight with each other, and making fun of each other’s antics. 

oh and thanks to jono, kaijun and arjun. 3 of you bothered to call me (in this order) when you got my msg of utter desperation, and many thanks for trying anyway. appreciate your almost coming late to print my ia for me, kaijun!

bah, stupid stupid exams. i think i’ll cry during prom. just because that’s the way i am.

a BIG FAT THANK YOU to steven, daryl and cao (: now i’m fully confident of submitting my stupid ia tmr so that there’re no more reasons (other than terrible prelim results) that can stop me from doing my IB this year haha.

yay, sean’s officially on fire again baby.

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edittt

IT IS 330 IN THE MORNING AND I AM STILL NOT DONE WITH MY IA. but a bigger and fatter thank you to tiffany and esp (joanne) gay, for helping me tighten everything up and correcting my concepts. more than muchly appreciated!

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edit. fk this. my printer just ran out of ink. 

i think i really ate my fill today at suki sushi. it was pretty funny to watch everyone of them die off one by one, slayed by the mighty conveyor belt. i must say though, steven was really consistent. even if he onli ate like 2/3 of everything he ordered, he just kept eating and eating and eating… no wonder lah steven. i need to learn from you, sigh.

man, i so want an ipod touch. that and the entire nano collection, just cos they’re all so colourful ;D i’m such a materialistic boy.

geog’s finally over, but now my ia shall officially begin! (and hopefully end as well, shit.)

man, today was such a dreary day. other than going to church, coming home to play company of heroes, sleeping for like 4 hrs, watching 2f2f, i really havent done anything. this, the day just before my last paper of my entire prelims. i’m such a slacker, nyeah.

anyway, have you really wondered why ppl insult each other before? even among friends, close friends even, why do insults get traded among ourselves? insulting anyone is never really a good thing, esp since you’re doing it at somebody else’s expense. even if it’s all in the name of "fun" and "games", but really… arent there better ways of finding some form of entertainment?

of course in acs, it’s almost impossible to go a day without any sarcasm or a witty comment. and this is probably one of the small little things i’ll miss when i leave acs - being able to suan other ppl without getting beaten up, and just laughing along when you yourself are at the receiving end of the jokes. it’s a really special thing i would think, probably because of the culture and whatnot. but then i lose my train of thoughts, so blahblah… (i’m sorry!)

that aside, i also wonder why some ppl derive entertainment out of making others’ lives absolutely miserable. i mean, when you’re out to flame the living ____ out of the person, and you do it in front of lots of ppl, not onli embarrassing the person but humiliating him in the process. why? why are ppl so screwed up? are we all really that terrible inside?

that being said, the dumbest way of resolution i can think of (other than fighting the bigmouth) is to argue with him. it’s kind of like those police adverts when ppl ask you to take drugs and all you have to do is really say "no" and walk away. is walking away that hard? or does our pride just come in our way and make us do irrational and stupid things which just reflect our immaturity. i get terribly confused.

wit is one thing. being able to retort somebody intelligently, exasperating him and making him look like a fool is probably my course of action. of course i’m not fully capable of it all the time, and i dun really think this is the best way to handle the problem but it is my way. but not thinking logically, making pathetic arguments and absolutely no sense doesnt really help you defend yourself, or anyone else for that matter. neither does insulting the other party (which would just put you at abt his level of maturity) and adding fuel to the fire really resolve the whole issue. but too often, that’s the course of action ppl take. cos that’s the one you think of first, "an eye for an eye" so they say.

Jesus told us to "turn the other cheek", and it’s really not easy when one of your cheeks are already smarting from the blow. and if you’re a Christian, all the more you should rmbr that. sure your friends might not keep themselves in check, but that’s where you come in right? i think we all have to be role models and set a proper example for the ppl ard us to follow, because we chose to be Christians, and that’s when we chose to put ourselves at the frontline of scrutiny. and that (in this case) means that we really shouldnt encourage our friends from trading insults with the ones that started the whole thing, but stop them from just giving those ppl more reason and more bullets to shoot us with, for lack of a better analogy at this point in time.

ah well, i should stop here before i ruffle too many more feathers. sides, i have 大哥大 to watch and geog to mug. suki sushi buffet tmr my babies, let’s all go have a good time (: