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i think i might burn out soon, but that’s not the best thing in the world to happen right now.

uyo awards presentation rehearsal tmr, and yet somehow i still dun feel a sense of accomplishment. everything i’ve achieved, everything i’ve done, is probably going to fade away with time, just like how everything else has and will. i’ve worked long and hard but for what? a piece of paper to indicate that i’ve tolerated 6 years of crap and that i should be rewarded because of it?

there’s more to life than this. i just need to find out what. 

i need to get rid of my emo depressed self (again) and get on with life.

my heart’s desires. more than often they do not match with the Lord’s. of course, the one that i should obviously listen to is what God has to say, but that’s not always the simplest thing in the world to do.

heh, 2 ppl have already guessed (rather accurately) as to what i need in my life. wanna be the next? 

it’s been 22 years (and more) since cck came into existence, and i’m very happy to be able to consider myself a part of the church! i’m sure that it hasnt been easy, with all the nonsense that comes in the way between us and God. but i thank God for the ppl that have put their time and effort into ensuring the growth of this church, and the transformation of the church into what it is today.

anniversary lunch today was pretty alright, if not a little awkward. according to sarah, it was well planned and well organised, so no complaints there! it’s pretty weird to suddenly be left out of everything though, but i guess i already expected this. it’s already bad enough that i’m a loner in school, but being a loner in church… well that’s sth totally different altogether.

today. today i make the choice. today i make the change. today i rededicate myself to whatever God has in store for me, and to put Him above everything else. if i falter, i pray that You forgive me. if you consider yourself to be my friend, please continue to keep me in check and guide me back to His way when i drift away.

today. 

drama foa can be summarized in but a few words:

play 1: not bad on the slapstick, but absolutely weird. i didnt get the whole gist of the play, other than this oppressive dictator girl and 2 other gayboys.

play 2: wtf?

play 3: excellent. gold with honours. cao.

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janice: "i’m so proud to be in .14!"

yeah, i think we all are (: 

man, another really late night just screwed up my entire bodily immune system i think. i havent slept for more than 4 hrs at a go since last sunday, and the 2hrs i slept last night didnt exactly make up for the deficit.

was falling asleep in every single class i had today, including the rachel cheung ioc lesson. thank God she didnt spot me, although blandon wasnt so lucky mweh. getting suanned every single time you try to say sth after you’ve been caught doing sth against her wishes isnt exactly my idea of fun. jono would probably agree with me there, and blandon too after today ><

i am damn tired. ISNT ANYONE GOING FOR DRAMA TMR NIGHT??

i need company. loneliness is a bitch. 

the whole ice balls for charity cafe degenerated into a slugfest of balls of ice at the end of pc today. the usual culprits were at it again, with new additions this time: fish, cheuk ho, shaoyi, pravween, victor, song and lao shi! xD

it’s really funny to watch your classmates chasing each other ard the entire school just cos they stuffed ice in each other’s shirts/pants and made them dance as if they taught michael jackson how to.

a piece of advice though. when chasing the cross country runner ard school, stop. you’re never gonna close up the gap, and the time and effort used could have been put to doing other things, so just give it up and plan your next attack on the slowpoke that will never catch up to you in his lifetime! (yes fish, that means go stuff ice in pravween’s shirt instead of victor’s)

i’m perspiring in an air conditioned room. ioc is annoying. 

clbhl might just be the onli class that is fully made up of ppl that are really full of shit. spent my entire recess talking nonsense to steven and fish, and how scamming the school for charity cafe might be the best thing that we’ll do all year!

(bah, ian is angry)

well, ee is cleared. world lit is cleared. the next thing to get out of my way is the fking geog ia that everybody loves so very much, before ioc mugging truly begins.

exhaustion is not good for the health. i miss my happy pill ):