i miss being 16
i just went through some of my archives from july and dec 06, and man how time has flown since then. it’s amazing how much (or little) i’ve grown since then, in terms of maturity, physically, mentally and spiritually. i honestly think my faith has stagnated to a point where i hardly find any excitement in the things i used to enjoy.
praying used to be really impt for me, and it should still be, but somehow things dun really feel the same anymore. it’s even more disconcerting to note that i was worrying abt my faith stagnating then, and 2 years down the road i’m still faced with the same problem. have i lost my priorities in life? do i even rmbr what is impt to me? what was impt to me in the first place?
i dunno. being the good wholesome christian boy isnt as easy as everyone thinks. and to think that i’ve been struggling with issues for more than a year, that is just an insanely long amount of time especially since i havent even turned 18 yet. yet through all this i’ve lost faith. faith in people, in friends, in my family, and worst of all in God.
don’t let my love grow cold
i’m calling out, light the fire again
light the fire again Lord, please. maybe it’s taken me 2 years to realise this, and even more for me to do anything abt it. forgive me, for i really really screwed up badly.
thank You for the ppl you’ve sent into my life to cheer me up and encourage me Lord. i hope i can treasure these friends as much as you treasure me, and more than they treasure me as well.
i need some love and encouragement now, please?
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econs paper 2 was alright. i chose 3 of 5 questions, from which i onli picked 2 to write abt. the last question was just so much crap that even dinesh would be proud of.
on a side note, i picked questions 3, 4 and 5. my index number is also 345, so i had a hard time deciding if i should write my question number next to my index number like they told me to, or to write it somewhere else so that the teachers wouldnt think i’m some sort of joker and refuse to mark my papers.
i just wrote 3 4 5 there anyway.