my blog just died from the inactivity sustained from my absence.
sean was pretty much an anti-social creature during the church camp. the reasons for my mellowness and my generally black face were pretty much decided when the camp groupings were announced. nevertheless, i did try to accept things for what they were, since God has a reason for doing what He does, but i think i still kinda failed in the end.
in other news though, it was great to be able to renew certain friendships in church. oh-9 has grown closer, although i was doing all the talking and them just giving me comments, and perhaps new friendships might have been built in the course of the camp. of course, there was also the other extreme, when old friendships (if any) soured and interaction between me and them declined drastically. heck, i’ll just treasure those that care and ignore those who dont.
thank God for so much. helping me realise i’m not alone as i first thought, and giving me this period of time for a renewal and refreshing in Him. there’s still a lot more to be done, a lot more obstacles to get past, a lot more stumbling blocks i have to get rid of in my life in order to have a closer walk with Him. as of now, there’s one major one that i have to overcome, so help me out if you consider me as a friend (:
hate, rage, bitterness. i’ll take what i can and try my best to get to the forgiveness part.
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i missed you internet, sniffs.